10 Things I'm Struggling With {Day 23}

1. The realization that my Mom is getting sicker. Her health is starting to fade. We sat together this afternoon and cried some quick tears about it. Then I came home and cried some more. There is nothing worse in this whole world than watching the people you love the most suffer.

2. I struggle in knowing how to discipline Jane. She is unreponsive to all conventional forms of discipline. I've started reading The Connected Child and hope that it offers me insight in how to lead my daughter.

3. Feeling like my life is too small. The dreams I dreamed as a teenager are not the reality that I'm living in. Is that because God has lead me down a different path or because we are choosing not to dream big dreams anymore?

4. This quote I read today by Mark Twain: "Most men die by the age of 27. We just don't bury them until they are 72."

5. Missing my husband while he is away...even though it's a short trip to speak in Jacksonville, just wish he was home tonight.

6. How to love both my girls enough. I want my girls to always know that Mommy is on their side. That I am for them. That I always will be. I want them to be secure in the love I have for them.

7. Jane's hair. I know it sound frivolous next to the others, but I just can't seem to find a line of products or even a mis-match of products that keep her hair from drying out & frizzing up by mid afternoon.

8. Missing some dear friends who live way too far away.

9. Laundry. I just cannot get ahead of the beast this week. It is piling up everywhere & I can't seem to get it done fast enough.

10. Knowing that God can...but seeing that He is choosing not to. And that in that He is good still. All the time good. Just being honest--hard for me to grapple with that one sometimes.