10 Things I'm Pondering At The Moment {Day 22}

1. How life is truly just a vapor. A breath. And then it's over. We heard today that an old friend passed away in his sleep last night. He was 40--with a lovely wife and young daugther. Sometimes it is hard to see God's goodness in the midst of such tragedy. Praying for those closest to him as they grieve. Thankfully they can grieve with hope knowing that He is kneeling at the feet of Jesus tonight.

2. Should I read tonight or watch a movie?

3. What healthy foods can I eat tomorrow?

4. Is Jane going to survive our camping trip next week? Better question: are we going to survive bring Jane on our camping trip next week?

5. Have I allowed myself to really grasp the magnitude of what has happened in bringing Jane home? In what ways has adoption changed me? Do I better understand what God has done in adopting me?

6. Where is Jane's birthmom? Is she safe? Is she alive? Does she remember that her baby's birthday is coming up? Does she have peace? She is so heavy on my heart these days. I guess it's because of Jane's coming birthday. Just seems like that day should belong to her. She was there that day. That is something special that I was not a part of. And I'm truly truly ok with that. Wondering how we can honor her on November 2. Just wish I could hug her and whisper in her ear that Jane is loved and well taken care of. Would that bring her peace, or turmoil in her heart?

7. How can we keep Christmas focused on the True Gift that has been given to us?

8. Why has Ava been acting like a hormonal teenager this week? And how are we going to survive when she really is a hormonal teenager? Man I love that girl--drama and all.

9. Do both of my girls know that I love them both?

10. I hate getting ready for bed. I wish there was a machine you could stand in for 30 seconds that would wash your face, brush your teeth, take our your contacts, and maybe even fix your hair for the next day. That would be delightful.